Social Anxiety Or Social Paranoia

I've been LoL-ing these past few days.
Not laughing out loud. League Of Legends.

Now , I crave for some MW2 or any Call Of Duty. Battlefield would be better. Maybe some Halo
Oh wait ~ I don't have a working XBOX and a working computer !
  DAMN !

With the anger out of the way , I've been actually thinking about the chalet. As much as I am excited for it , I am also not anticipating its arrival coming closer and closer.
I mean , I have not attended like the OTHER 2E2 outings. I am not sure if there was any but I remember Mavis telling me like what happened when they were watching a movie with Bryan and the other guys. Pretty damn epic hidden agendas they have~


Anyways , back to my point . I have never attended the other outings so I thought to myself I should probably come for this one. But , well , I am no good with crowds or conversations so let's just say I'll be terribly quiet. Though , I don't think anyone will be talking to me if I come for the chalet. I mean , Hafis , Bryan and Jeremiah will probably be chilling with Delvin , Ben etc etc~ Basically , they have their own cliques and I have my own ! I , me , my and mine formed our clique~
Another thing will be this question that lingers in my mind.
"Does anyone even want me to come to the chalet?"

I hate to bother people , so I will try my best to un-bother them. Problem is , if the answer to my question is YES , then I don't know how do I un-bother the rest of the 2E2s. I guess I will never know then~ So many damn questions that I can't answer.

Well , sorry for the brief post once more ?
It is because I have nothing to blog about.
If I have , I would probably fill an entire essay!