Bleaching The Stains

Right now , I am writing down tasks that I must complete to at least provide positive changes to my life. Some good changes are better than none at all right ?~

First of all , I'm gonna reduce my excessive usage of the swear words. May not seem easy because it seems like a reflex action that mouth my involuntary does. If I do manage to keep this usage to an all time low , this will seriously give good progress and may even prove as a sign that I have the possibility to complete all these tasks I have given myself. Besides , it's gonna prove beneficial to me as well. At least Anabelle won't have to be all naggy on me and my sailor mouth.

Next up , being the the mediator. I know my friends have arguments very rarely but it is possible and I shall promise myself to be the bridge between two sides. I would not support any sides so as to prevent clouded judgement. Then again , preventing them from arguing seems appropriate as well.

Third on the list. Well , this might not seem easy and it requires me to step out of my comfort zone but if it's for the better , sure why not. Do not hold any grudges and to let go of the past. I easily get offended but I don't show it and people who do offend me holds a special spot on the angry side of my mind. It's like burden you can't release because it's a very petty thing so to let go of a lot of these burden seems appropriate. The past will prove to be harder to let go to.

Honestly , I feel uncomfortable when certain people are around because of what had happened in the past. That is why I tend to shy away from them to get rid of the uncomfortable feeling. At first , I thought it was for the best but avoiding these people tend to be a tedious tasks and I would like converse with them but the past memories has been haunting me. So I would like all these bad past gone ~