Hurts Like A Cactus

A sudden thought hit me just early on.

I think I've been a prick lately and not just to my friends but to my other acquaintances too.
Am I really such a prick ? I don't know. I can't really know myself because even I am confused about my behaviour for the past few days. I might try asking my friends but I'm not sure whether they'll give me their honest opinions. Either that , or they'll sugar coat it. What I want is the real answer though.

I want to know if my conduct is unbecoming. I could still probably reshape my attitude if my conduct is indeed seen as inappropriate by the people around me. I just need the answer. The answer to my problem which is the key to the lock of whether I should consider an attitude adjustment.

Honestly , I felt the same whenever I see some friends fading away or when I notice some of them ignoring me and stuff like that makes me paranoid , not just about my attitude but also the impression I give off when I'm around them. We all know that we don't like to be around people that gives us bad impressions to our surrounding fellows. I'm like that too. I don't want to be around people that makes me look bad in front of my other friends but sometimes , I don't have a choice if they stick around me. After all , they're company and since I'm those socially awkward people who are grateful for the littlest social interaction , I appreciate their presence around me.

So ,  the main question of me behaving not up to expectation still lingers in the air. I just hope I find the answer as soon as possible and I won't regret it if the truth hurts. After all , bad attitudes shoos away good friends right ?~

While I still ponder about this topic , I am currently chatting with Cataleen on Twitter and looking at my blog views. Quite a low view count nowadays. Psh~ It's alright.